acceptance or given lover?
<strong>Acceptance and given lover</strong>
Had been reading this cute girl blog for sometimes since may,felicia, really the love she had with her malay bf, so sweet and cute….haha….her love story with the malay bf is romantic…really envy…how i wish i could be like her and her malay bf….falling in love so sweet so nice.
Love is sometimes simple yet complicated sometimes, i remembered in may, while we were on the way back from washington to newyork in our pt cruiser car to our hotel, lena,me and guo an,oh i forget yee hoe the driver too……we started a conversation….lovers, there are two kind…one kind is acceptance lover and the other is given lover.
acceptance and given lover? which kind are you? I admit myself is the given one, the one who will always by the person i love,but this type of lover always suffer the most, in terms of emotional or what….acceptance lover is rather easy….u dun have to brother much.
For me, i wun anyhow accept love, cause i scare i might hurt others,im not a player neither a flinger… i choose to be the one in given….provide her the needs when she need me….but sister lena also tell me that acceptance lover is more likely can choose, but the given one will stick to one, when u log on to the one….guoan told me, lets be acceptance lover lah!!! i did tried, but i can/t, i failed….i just wana be the given one….but a very most important thing in love is….the love you gave out, you may not recieve the other part of love back…must be prepare for that.
Sometimes ppl say, you love the person, you might not be with the person….this is what grace shimei told me 2 years ago at woodland starbucks….i knew….being a given lover is very hard and tiring….maybe my life is cheap….i like to see myself suffer in love so i can write beautiful love story…lolx.
But love in one sided is also hard….can the other party feel it? maybe or maybe not….As for me now, i will still be the one as given lover, cause i like to see ppl happy, if someone can be happily in love with another….even is the person i like or i love…she going to be someone lover…and the person can be someone she trusted and take care of her in life…why not? but why not me in the first place? i dunno maybe it is fated.
I remember i told someone i dun like to share things,not that im selfish….i rather give u the things than share…if i wana own the thing…i want it to be mine only…and for love is the same….there is no such things as share love…share lover? how many person can you miss one time as in love? and how many ppl u can love at 1 time? Im naive…last time i used to tell myself…i want my 1st love to be my future wife, i failed….
I fear love sometimes, i scare the given me will be hurt once again…..winnie once told me, i have a girl’s heart…..machiam always be there for the bf, care this and that.
But the me now, have no chance to say love, how to say love to a person? when u are so far away and apart?? and ppl have so much chasers queue-ing….where is my line? am i in the queue too? I cannot ask much….and dun have anything to shower u with…i only have 1 thing…my true heart….the love i wana give cannot be touch or feel, cause it is too far.
I knew my chances is limit….compare to him or other better matches….im just like watford…under the table…compare to the stars in chelsea,man u,liverpool and arsenal….i can/t ask much….and i have no status to ask this and that from you, or any other chasing you….im just like a shadow angel…will always be there for you..when you need me….or at that moment, im just that sub piece of jigsaw puzzle that you had been missing,i should not have appear in your movie…but i did.
Sometimes indeed feel alone, but i know there are friends here…..love? u are a word that always makes me feel hurt…when is the time you going to make me happy?
August 18th, 2007 at 7:16 am
There are times where life is made so difficult you have to suffer, there are also times where life provide pleasant surprises that would turn life a little happier. Your time has not come yet.
Do you still believe in horoscope like you did last time?? I am appreciating it now.
September 16th, 2007 at 4:07 am
Someone said… “Wallets are a lot like girls. You really have to take good care of, because if you won’t, something might happen”…
I know what he means. I just lost a wallet, and I just lost a girl. You know, it’s the exact same thing.
One day, you just realize it’s gone. You try to look for it everywhere, even going back to the places where you could have lost it.
You think, and you think hard, only to come upon a grim realization: it’s really gone.
Of course, you can hold on to some hope. After all, there have been some very, very lucky (blessed?) people who get it back.
Perhaps you could become one of those people. You sit home and you hope that someone would call, and that you would get it back. But then, some time passes, and you realize that it’s still gone, and you realize that it’s time to let go.
The first few days, you turn to your friends for support. Some tell you you’ll be ok, some tell you that it was your fault and that you should have been more careful, and some tell you about their own experiences.
They give you all sorts of advice, none you haven’t heard before.
You then go out to find a new wallet, only to realize that you don’t really want a new one. You want the old one that you lost.
No, you don’t want all these better-looking wallets, you want yours, because of how comfortable it is, because of all the cards and pictures and other stuff in it.
You go out and carry on without a wallet, keeping your money in your pocket instead. You throw away stuff that you would have held on to if you had your old wallet. And then, finally, you find a new wallet you like and settle in.
You then start filling your new wallet, little by little. It still doesn’t feel as comfortable as the old one, but it’s getting there.
Then you start putting in cards and pictures and other important stuff in the wallet. Soon enough, there’s as much stuff in your new wallet as the old one. And then, after some time, you feel as comfortable with your new wall! et.
And then you realize that you’ve almost forgotten you ever had your old wallet. Sure, you still remember most of the stuff you lost on that wallet. But then again, you don’t remember the feeling of hurt that you felt when you lost it.
That’s because that wallet you lost is no longer your wallet. You’re no longer holding on. This new wallet you’re holding, it has all the important cards and pictures and stuff that you need. This is your wallet.
And this time, you tell yourself, you’re never losing this one.
September 18th, 2008 at 8:00 am
Hahs…. I think i’m the given lover…
My time has not come yet and i don’t think it’ll ever come.
Sighz~
Anyway all the best wish you find ur girl
Someday whn u cme bk(: